i promise this is the last mopey text post of the night. i wanted to clarify something before i lose all my followers. there are people on tumblr who post depressing and deep text posts and morbid pictures about death and agony to seem more aloof to strangers to seem cool and more intense and all-knowing, as in the people who post these things but are actually very happy in real life, and its ok if u are the kind of person i just described! although, i am not. i am clinically depressed and take medicine every day and am abused at home. i dont like publicizing this so it seems as though im gathering a pity party. i just dont want to seem like a poser or someone who is trying to get attention. even with this, i am not trying to get attention. just know, that everything on my blog is true and what i actually feel and is the only place i can express it bc i trust my followers to understand and accept me. recently and in the next month or so, there may be some annoying and depressing text posts, and those are primarily for me to release my feelings. if u do not appreciate this, i understand and i dont mind if u unfollow me bc u cannot handle me. i will still love u forever. think of this as my own personal disclaimer. thank u if u actually read all of this for whatever reason xD i really do love u all and this post can also be taken as a thank u to everyone for tolerating me <3 u r all fantastic.
when hes gone, there is this empty part inside me, like im always bored and uninterested. and i cant stop crying. this isnt a breakup text post, but a sudden long distance relationship complaining post. i cant stop crying and wondering about him even though he's asleep right now. he has no idea.